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When I remember the special moments of my youth, I panic. What memories will my children have?
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No one could possibly be living like this. Everyone else has more time, more money, more help — or all three
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"I’m a mom and a therapist because when this happens, you become a therapist”
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Look at me, filling up on fiber and vitamins C and A… and also 2,000 calories of cheesecake
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Gifts aren't my love language, but I learned to appreciate the joy others take in giving - and being received graciously
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I’ve always seen myself as the black cat with the rain cloud over its head
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We argued whose turn it was to spend Sundays with Zeidy
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But we ourselves, while loved, don’t belong. We don’t live on Planet Normal. We live on Planet Crazy
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“Look at him, at him, behind the stained shirt and missing teeth, and you can’t help loving him, he’s another Jew"
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But today and yesterday, five years after burying them, in my nightly half-sleep, those dreams came to me, taunting, “What will be with you, Bracha?”
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I stand there with my years’ worth of baggage. Praying for another year