Map the Starlight: Chapter 10
| August 2, 2017F riar Pere’s eyes are deep blue and inscrutable. “Come in come in” he says. “Will you not close the door? Or are there more eavesdroppers out there?”
Bernat stands up and closes the door. Ramon looks down at his hands. Friar Pere’s words play in his mind. Perhaps this will lead him to follow in his ancestor’s footsteps. Though it was a tragic path.
Friar Pere always told him that he knows nothing of Ramon’s family or origins.
When Ramon was but a boy of maybe six summers’ life span each morning he would go up to the friar after morning Mass grab at his flapping black sleeve and say “Today Father? Today will you tell me of my family?”
Each day Friar Pere would look down his fat hands would pat Ramon’s thin cheek and he would say “The day you arrived here you were newborn. Look to me as your father and the holy spirit shall be your mother and you shall never lack.” Morning light glowed through the stained-glass windows and just for a second everything was warm and the world filled with yellows and reds moments held in sunlight. But as the day progressed the dazzle always wore away.
When had he stopped asking?
Ramon didn’t know. But sitting in the velvet chair watching Friar Pere sip a glass of ruby-colored liquid that looks and smells like wine but that he calls essence of hibiscus because wine is forbidden to churchmen he realizes that he stopped asking too soon.
“So boys. How would you like to learn the tongue of the Jews?”
Bernat crinkles his nose so that his nostrils flair and his cheeks grow pink. “Extra studying Father? Really we only came up here—”
“For braised hare. I have not forgotten. No doubt you’d prefer to…”
“Anything Father! Even digging up that patch of ground. For the herbs...” He blushes caught.
Friar Pere tips back his head and laughs. “And why not Bernat?”
Ramon watches them. Rumor has it that Friar Pere wears a rough horsehair vest under his vestments for penance. That under his clothing his back is raw and bleeding an attempt to atone for some sin. Perhaps he deserves it.
Friar Pere sets his glass down. “Hebrew is an ancient tongue the repository of much wisdom. Surely it is wisdom that you seek?”
They had made such a vow when they became novices: truth purity wisdom.
Friar Pere stands up and reaches up his bookshelves to find an old volume. His fingers scrabble at the bottom of the shelf: he is just a little too small to grasp the leather. Ramon swallows binds the workings of his heart with a tight leather strap. He strides to the bookshelf and slides the book down easily. He hands it to Friar Pere who blows the dust off the cover.
He puts the book down in the middle of his desk and opens the front cover. “A Hebrew prayer book ” he announces. “But we do not need their prayers. Just their alphabet.”
“And here here we begin. And in the beginning…”
Ramon’s fingers grip the carvings on the side of his chair.
The beginning. Ramon’s own beginning.
A puddle of brown blanket left by the altar of the church.
“The first letter of the Hebrew alphabet — which parenthetically is read from right to left not left to right as we are accustomed — is alef. Alef.”
Ramon forces himself to echo: “Alef.”
Friar Pere’s face becomes contemplative. “Silent letter alef.”
The silence of abandonment of questions never answered of searching for an elusive point of origin.
Alef of silence. (Excerpted from Family First Issue 553)
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