From A to Z : Chapter 14
| October 26, 2021You’re doing so well now, Shulamis, I tell myself. Why would you even think you’re not happy?
“What’s on your mind, young lady?” he asked me cheerfully, after he located me for the third time. I blushed and said nothing. Mr. Joe smiled again and continued on his way, with me following him diligently, embarrassed of myself. Not only was I an 18-year-old, who, due to no fault of her own, could not read and needed a travel companion, but I also, very maturely, made the companion feel like a babysitter.
I slept through the short plane ride, and when we landed, I was simply focused on not losing Mr. Joe. When I finally settled into my father’s car, the disturbing thoughts that had chased me the whole week suddenly returned.
Am I happy?
What does happy even mean?
Nechami told me that according to the dictionary, the definition of “happy” is, “feeling or showing pleasure or contentment.”
Am I feeling “pleasure and contentment?”
It’s such a strange thing to think about. You’re doing so well now, Shulamis, I tell myself. Why would you even think you’re not happy? Look at what you’ve accomplished!
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