I don’t understand why schools always choose the same girls for everything

Bina

Hi, I’m Bina.

I don’t understand why schools always choose the same girls for everything. I know people say it’s not true – but seriously, it is. I am in 10th grade and I am never chosen for anything! I don’t really care, I just think it’s totally and completely not fair. I do so much for the school, they have no idea. I convinced so many people to come to this school and when other girls in my grade bash the school, I always defend it. I would think that for all my loyalty I should get chosen sometimes. Whatever, like I said I don’t care.

My friend Sara gets chosen for everything. She said a dvar Torah at the school Shabbos, she was class chesed representative last year, and this year she is assistant chessed head. This means that she is always busy with her new friends, or working on some school responsibility that she can’t tell me about because it’s private. The other girls from her committee always laugh together with her regarding some private joke or another. I am just getting so nervous from her!  It’s like she is purposely rubbing it into my face that she was chosen and I wasn’t. Why can’t she at least tell me what she’s working on? I could probably even help. I’m pretty creative.

Worst part is that she pretends everything is normal. When she is not busy with her new friends she’ll sit with me at lunch and call me on the phone to schmooze or study. Honestly, at that point, I’m not interested. Don’t use me when it’s convenient for you.

Sara

Hi, I’m Sara. I’m loving high school, bh! I’m working very, very hard. Marks do not come easy for me, unlike my best friend Bina who easily aces every test and assignment. I spend hours rewriting my notes, creating study guides, and then actually studying. I am not complaining; I’m happy that with my efforts I earn decent grades. In elementary school I constantly went to tutors. Now that I am in high school, I am using the skills I learned and working very hard, but at least I do not need to spend so much time with tutors anymore! The other nice part about high school is that I get to be part of school committees. I signed up for the chessed club. Everyone can sign up and after one year of participating you can serve as head. This year I volunteered to serve as head. It’s exhausting but so rewarding. I organize three events throughout the year and coordinate all the volunteers from my grade.

When I’m busy with those events, I sense that Bina is unhappy with me. I’m not really sure why. When she was chosen to represent our school for the Chidon, I was just happy for her. When she acted in the school play as the main part, I cheered for her the loudest.

In elementary school I always needed to follow her and I seemed to live in her shadow. Now that I’m in high school, I’m finally recognized and noticed for my own abilities. I would think she would be happy for me.