Teen Fiction: A Matter of Priorities
| September 5, 2018“Sorry, Rivky, I have to daven now,” I said to my sister, and left her staring after me.
"Good Shabbos, Tzippy! I’m so glad I came today, I really gained a lot. Thank you!” I gave her a quick hug before heading home for Shalosh Seudos. Wow, and to think I nearly stayed home.
Tzippy was my class’s Bnos leader in seventh grade and we all thought she was awesome. We made her a huge party before she left for seminary and we all pledged to keep in touch.
Well, you know how these things usually go, but not this time! Tzippy would send long letters to our school, addressed to our class, and we’d send long letters back. Plus, several girls corresponded privately with her as she was a cross between big sister, adviser, and incredibly cool older friend.
Tzippy returned from seminary in June and spent the entire summer in camp, and now that she was finally home she’d offered to join our class on Shabbos afternoon. Everyone was thrilled, of course, and quite anxious to hear what she had to say. Since my cousins were visiting from Chicago, it wasn’t so simple for me to get out. But, boy, was it worth it!
Tzippy spoke about her seminary experiences, emphasizing the beauty and kedushah of Eretz Yisrael, as we listened, mesmerized. “It was really hard for me to even think of leaving that special kedushah, the special closeness to Hashem that I felt so clearly in Eretz Yisrael,” Tzippy told us. “And then I realized that I could take some of it with me. When I daven, I can recreate that closeness, that special bond to Hashem, and especially when I daven in shul, I can continue to build that close relationship to Hashem I’ve been working on. And you, girls, are so lucky! With Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur coming up, you too have the opportunity to use these special days to daven and create a closeness to Hashem.”
Walking home that’s all I could think about. I was so inspired! I, Sara Malka Fried, would not miss this opportunity. Of course, the yetzer hara tries to thwart all good intentions but I would be in shul with my machzor bright and early and I wouldn’t let anything stand in the way of my davening!
On Erev Rosh Hashanah I was sitting in the living room looking through my machzor so I’d be familiar with the tefillos when five-year-old Gavi ran in howling. “Shmueli Gross crashed right into me with his scooter and he didn’t even say sorry and I’m gushing!”
“Can’t you see I’m busy?” I snapped as he performed complicated gymnastic maneuvers trying to get his knee as close as possible to my eyes. And no, it most certainly was not gushing. At such a close vantage point, however, I did notice a modest trickle of blood that, for Gavi, justified such dramatics.
“Can’t you ask someone else?” Even as I spoke I realized there was no one else around. I grabbed the Band-Aid box from the medicine chest and thrust it at him. “Wow! Thanks!” he whistled and, eyes shining, he raced back outside clutching his treasure tightly to his chest, as though worried I’d rethink my generosity.
As my mother bentshed licht I wondered about Maariv, which I don’t usually daven, but on Rosh Hashanah, shouldn’t I? Should I go to shul? That was solved when my father said he doubted there’d be an ezras nashim at night. But at home? Yes, of course I should daven Maariv at home. I resolved to do so, looking longingly at the magazine I’d left on the couch.
“Sara Malka, I could really use your help setting the table, especially with the napkins. Could you help me fold them into swans?”
“Sorry, Rivky, I have to daven now,” I said to my sister, and left her staring after me.
“There you are, Sara Malka,” my mother said when I returned from davening in the den. “I need you to quickly get the table ready.”
“I was davening,” I explained proudly, “but wasn’t Rivky doing the table?”
“Well, she started to, but I needed her to take care of Gavi instead. Would you believe he plastered himself from head to toe with Band-Aids?”
Whoops.
The seudah was beautiful but it took ages, especially with the simanim.
“Mommy, why don’t you go up to bed? Sara Malka and Rivky will help me clear up,” Tatty said. “Right, girls?” Like we had a choice. Oh, no! I’d wanted to get to sleep early so I could get up on time for shul in the morning. Well, here goes! While Tatty was busy at the sink and Rivky was clearing and putting away food in the kitchen, I tackled the dining room table. I quickly gathered the remaining plates and utensils, ignoring the ubiquitous honey as I stacked everything and brought it to my father at the sink. Then, I quickly shoved each serving bowl and plate, food included, into a bag and stuffed everything into the refrigerator. Who had time to waste scraping salads into containers, only to put them back into serving bowls tomorrow? Glancing once more into the dining room, I concluded that it would only be fair for Rivky to finish the table and throw out the sticky plastic covering. I needed my sleep.
“Good Yom Tov, everyone,” I called as bounded down the steps fully dressed and prepared to leave for shul the next morning.
“You look lovely.” Mommy flashed me her soft smile. “Rivky already dressed Yitzi, but I could use your help with Dini. She only wants you!’”
“You are adorable!” I declared, ruffling Dini’s curls, “but I need to get to shul.” I left the house without a backward glance.
“Good Yom Tov, Mrs. Lebowitz!” I raised my voice hoping the older woman could hear me.
“Oh, Sara Malka, Hashem sent you to me! A good girl like you, you are going to shul — where else? And my legs, they’re not so young like they used to be and today they’re not walking so well, so how can I go to shul? But Hashem sent you and now you can walk with me!” Mrs. Lebowitz finished triumphantly. How could I disappoint her? But I had to be strong!
“I’m sorry, Mrs. Lebowitz, but I’m going to be late if I don’t really run. But I’m sure someone else will walk with you. Good Yom Tov,” I called back as I hurried away.
Much of the ladies’ section was empty when I arrived; I guess most people are not aware of the strength of our tefillos! Opening my machzor, I was soon engrossed in my davening. Each time the door opened, though, my concentration was broken by the noise in the hallway. Mrs. Lebowitz finally showed up half an hour later holding Blimi Teichman’s arm. I guess it’s good I’d hurried ahead.
“What are they up to?” a girl whispered, leaning over the bench in front of me. I showed her my page and pointedly turned away. A few minutes later I was once again nudged, and once again held up my machzor, this time with a sharp look of disapproval. If everyone would come on time and pay attention I wouldn’t have to keep getting disturbed! Frustrated, I glared at the many offenders.
My sister Rivky showed up at Krias HaTorah and glowered at me. “Mommy and I just spent the last hour trying to negotiate with an overtired, tantruming toddler because you were in too much of a rush to go daven to spend two minutes dressing her!” she huffed between aliyos. “Do you really think it was right for Mommy and me to miss all of Shacharis so you could be in shul on time?”
Hmm. I no longer felt quite so proud of myself but… could this still be the yetzer hara at work? It was after davening that I got the shock of my life.
“Good Yom Tov, Tzippy! I didn’t see you before!”
“Good Yom Tov, Sara Malka! Of course you didn’t see me, I wasn’t here. I just came now to hear the ladies’ shofar blowing,” Tzippy explained.
“But…what about davening in shul?
“You know my sister had a baby last week? She’s staying with us, and my mother and I both had our hands full with her twins. When one finally went down for a nap, and one of us could go, it was only right that it should be my mother. I would have loved to daven in shul today, but I sure couldn’t leave them alone like that! Priorities, right?” she added with a grin. “Maybe tomorrow I can get here for something.”
Priorities, huh? I had a lot to think about. But first I needed to find Mrs. Lebowitz. Maybe she’d let me walk her home. And I’d offer to walk her to shul tomorrow, only I can’t say when I’ll be available because I need to first see what my mother needs.
And I sure hope I get to the refrigerator before my mother notices the salads.
(Originally featured in Mishpacha Jr., Issue 726)
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