Even if I can calm down for a minute the anxious feelings will come back, I know they will

Mrs. Berkowitz is teaching about optimism. “So when you’re worried or feeling down, guide your mind gently away from all the negativity and think about something good.”

Huh? What planet is she coming from?

My thoughts get Krazy Glued in my head and no amount of effort can get them out. I struggle to think of sunshine and rainbows, but my brain is filled with shadows. The classroom is coming alive as everyone adds in their thoughts. I’m starting to feel like what’s happening to me is all my fault: I’m just a negative person. I have to look for the good. So I tune into the suggestions. Keep a gratitude journal, look at the cup half-full, think of people that have much less than you….

I jot them down and resolve to implement at least some. Maybe they can fix the mess that has become my life. What’s wrong with me, is the recurring thought that pops up every time I try unsuccessfully to “focus on the good.”

I’m gonna feel horrible forever.

Think about trees or flowers or snowflakes.

My heart doesn’t listen. I’m panicking.

I have to do something. I need a way out.